Blog Thief

Ok so I stole this from my girl Kats blog, but it rocked so much that I had to!

10 songs that make me remember (in no particular order). And if your reading this, TAG your it!

1. Crossroads (Bone Thugs n' Harmony): 7th grade, Q105 (our favorite radio station), we used to call and request this song and give 'shout outs' ALL the time! I had this song on just about every single mixed tape (and I had TONS). It reminds me of laying out by the pool at my best friend Kristas house, where we didnt have a care in the world aside from what boys were coming over, lol

2. Best of Burden (The Stones): reminds me of the houseboat trips my family has taken every single year for the last like 15 years, Lake Mohave, Forever Resorts houseboats, its the BEST vacation ever. We play this song several times a day when we just lounge in the lake drinking all day long, gotta love family vacations

3. Friends Forever (Vitamin C): as dorky as this song is, it came out the year I graduated high school (2000) and it was played as we all walked out and I remember totally bawling when I heard it

4. Walk This Way (Aerosmith): I apparently sing this song in my sleep according to my cousins, so its the joke every time we go out and they request it at every bar we go to together, cracks me up

5. Back That Ass Up (Juvenile): one word: clubbing.

6. Better off Alone (Alice DJ): Grad Nite 2000...with my best friend Angie, BEST night of my life (for reasons I am embarassed to say now, but it was a blast!). We danced our bootys off to this song all night

7. Mesmerized (Ja Rule): No real meaning to it, its just a song me and my sister love singing in the car and it reminds me of her and makes me happy every time I hear it

8. Get Low (Lil John): CLUBBING. When this song comes on at a club, EVERYONE is up on the dance floor, you cant help but want to shake it when you hear this one

9. I wanna know (Joe): reminds me of my first love, awwww, 18 year old love, soooo glad I am over that phase in my life

10. Celebration (Kool and The Gang): because its played at every single family wedding and it just reminds me of celebrating life and being happy!

Speaking of celebrating life, today was a sad sad day, I want to tear up just thinking about it. I was on a unit at Childrens Hospital called Bone Marrow Transplant (BMT) and my 2 patients I had both had something called ALL (Acute Lymphocytic Leukemia). Lauren was 18 months old and Jonathan was 16 months old. Both the sweetest kids you will ever meet in your life, and both so sick. When kids have ALL they usually get bone marrow transplants because their bone marrow is 'bad' and not producing the cells they need to have a healthy functioning immune system, so they get the transplant (from either a donor or cord blood) and everyone crosses their fingers that it takes and that they 'get better.' The sad part is that for them, getting better is living a year or two longer, because the prognosis of ALL is really poor. They were trying to get Lauren 'well' enough to be able to go home so her parents could enjoy her before her disease advances too far, which just broke my heart. Laurens life is basically living in a bubble. She has a plastic shield between her crib and the outside world, that has arm holes for the nurses so they can do simple tasks without having to put on all of the isolation gear (gown, mask, hair cap, booties, and double gloves). To go into Laurens room, I had to scrub in for 5 minutes, and put on all the gear, so really she doesnt even get to see your face, which is so sad because I so wish she could have seen me smiling because she was so stinkin cute. The best part, is that she doesnt know she is sick, she is just happy as can be. She knows she takes medicine, she knows that we have to listen to her heart and take her temperature and other vital signs, she knows she isnt allowed to walk past a certain line in her room, but she has no idea that she wont be living for much longer. I guess its better that way, if I had a choice I would want to live with a chronic illness and not know it too. I just felt so sad for her and her family, 3 months ago she was a happy, healthy 15 month old baby, and now she is still happy, but far from healthy. I loved the kids I got to take care of today, I just wish there was a cure for what they had so they could get healthy. I dont think I could ever work in a unit like that, its just so sad.

Ok I have been up since 4 am and got 4 hours of sleep last night..I am just a little bit beyond beat!

HUMP DAY

Today was supposed to be my "fun" day off, turned out not so fun, ugh. Spent 3 hours driving down to Childrens Hospital just to get a stupid badge to wear for 2 more clinicals, how lame is that?! Drove Michael to pick up his car (which was acting up again after just dropping like 4 grand into it) in the valley, another hour in the car. I hate driving! lol. I did get to spend time with my sister today which was super cool, I miss having her around.

I cant wait for Friday, getting some spa treatment and good ole' girl shopping with Michelle, I am super excited.

My birthday was ok, it kinda sucks because on your birthday you realize all the people that DONT call you. Sounds kinda selfish, but it does kinda hurt your feelings a little. Scored some sweet gifts from Michael and the fam bam, gift cards, money, new ink for my printer! (only a scrapper would get excited about that), some teeth whitening stuff, and some tanning lotion. I am going to start tanning again (bad, I know, but something about a TAN just makes ya feel so dang good!).

Nothing really too exciting to report...loving my new job, and schools just SCHOOL.

Hope everyones having a great week!

How wacky and fun is this cake?!?!

I passed!

Wooooo freakin whooo!! I passed the exam with an 86%, not bad for a crazy lady writing it! I was kinda worried for a minute that I did bad, but turns out I did much better. Yay!

I am aching for a vacation, and school barely started! I miss our cruise so much, that was the BEST time, I cant wait for another vacation like that (next one will be our honeymoon I'm sure).

Guess what tomorrow is?! My BIRTHDAY! I so dont want to turn 24, I liked being 23, lol. Nothing really planned, I am actually working until 6, and then dinner planned for afterwards with the fam-bam and Michael. My sister is coming out so I am super excited about that, get to spend the day with her on Wednesday!

This picture is one I made Michael pose for in the exact spot he asked me to marry him. We didnt have any pictures of right when he did it, so we went back on the last day. awwww...I just love him!

I used to love Sundays

Now, not so much.

My Sundays used to consist of lounging around with Michael since it was our only day off together, watching our favorite show, Desperate Housewives (which premiers tonight), cooking dinner together, etc etc...now, I am cramming for an exam that I have the following day, pulling my hair out because my instructor doesnt TEACH us crap, and stressing. I cant wait for Sunday to go back to the way it used to be. I graduate in December 2007, but technically we only have 11 more months of SCHOOL (summer and breaks excluded), which is sooo awesome. I cant flippin wait. I love school, dont get my wrong, but I loved my LIFE too.

Fun for the day yesterday: going home from Childrens Hospital in LA after being there for 13 hours, I got on the 101 going the WRONG way for 20 miles. Who does that, really? I think I am losing brain cells!

Off to study. gross.

YUM

Had a fun day off yesterday. Drove down to Childrens Hospital in LA for NO friggin reason, the ID/parking place was closed, so the trip was pointless, ugh I hate when that happens. Took my girlfriend Angie and her daughter Asheley (who will be 1 in 2 weeks and is the cutest thing ever) to my aunts house to swim, had a blast. My aunt and uncle took us out for Sushi for our birthdays (since they are a week apart). Yum. Seriously, the BEST Sushi place, and its in this run down motel on PCH, but its the bomb diggity. Im still thinking about it.

Babysitting today and tomorrow, no clue when I am going to have any time to study for this next exam, sigh.

Saw this on Michelles blog, thought it was super cute!

The stuff I love right now:

1. Honey Bunches of Oats ("its a mouth full of joy")

2. Its not 100 degrees outside at 8 am

3. Its past midterms, and in 4 weeks I will be halfway done with second semester

4. Vegas for Thanksgiving ("Vegas Baby")

5. My family and friends

6. American Crafts paper, I think thats what I love the MOST

7. GREYS IS ON TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

8. Planning my wedding, as far away as it may be, I love every moment of planning every single detail

9. Michael. I love him all the time, but especially right now (lol, hes sleeping).

10. A spa/girls day with Michelle next Friday, cant wait!!

Happy Thursday!

{No Subject}

Nothing too exciting going on around here, wish I could say there was. Got this from NicholeW's blog, thought it was a cute way to post

Yesterday:
Had class with the worlds worst nursing instructor ever.
Ate greek food with the girls from nursing school.
Got my TURBO JAM dvd's.
Turbo-kicked with Michelle.
Thought about cleaning the house, and quickly changed my mind.

Today:
Already worked out and its only 9:30 am.
Babysitting.
Talked to an old friend.
Need to take a nap.

Tomorrow:
Driving all the way to Childrens Hospital in LA for a stupid badge.
Taking my girlfriend Angie out for her birthday.
Possibly cooking dinner.
Study.
Work out.

See. Told ya there was nothing exciting.

Wiped out

Ok so school is just wiping me OUT! I had my last 12 hour clinical at St. Johns in Oxnard yesterday, and this week will start 12 hours at Childrens Hospital in LA. I like the 12 hour clinicals, but they totally wipe you out, big time!! I had a great last day though, I was so proud of myself, I did EVERYTHING on time, my charting, vitals, meds, etc etc...it was a great day!

Nothing too exciting to report, my b day is coming, yiipppiieee!! Not doing anything super-special, going to dinner with the fam, hopefully having girls night out with the girls from nursing school, maybe something special with Michael, we shall see!

Off to study and write my scholarship essay, I am in desperate need of some money!

What do you think of these cards & magnet for our save the dates? I just LOVE these!!

This totally sucks

Ok so this new blogger 'beta' rocks because of the easy options and simplicity of changing your blog around...however it sucks because you cant comment on peoples blogs unless they also upgraded to blogger beta. Total bummer, most people just have regular blogger :o(

Tonight was a fun night, when I got back from babysitting Michael had a really nice dinner, Spaghetti and meatballs with fresh french bread (the sauce for the pasta is his family recipe, its SO stinkin good!!!). I stopped on my way home and picked up some wine (although I wish I loved red wine, I cant stand it, so we opted for a white, even though it so doesnt go with pasta!). I had 3 glasses, yum! For those that dont know, Michael and I live with my parents, I have always lived with them, but I convinced him to move in after we got engaged so we could save money for our house that we are hopefully buying around this time next year. So its been an adjustment (he had his own place before, so we had plenty of 'alone' time), but its really for the best, and he gets along great with my parents. The whole point is that my parents are on a "road trip" this week so we have the house to ourselves, hence the wine :o)

On a side note, 5 weeks left of this AWEFUL nursing instructor that I have and I am done with her! woooo, cant wait!! I swear, labor and delivery and pediatrics is supposed to be the FUN rotation in nursing school, and this has been absolute HELL. I love my clinical instructor, thankfully I dont have the aweful instructor for both theory AND clinical, but I am just so anxious for it to be over that I am not enjoying myself. Although 2 weeks ago I got to see a c-section, and 2 vaginal deliveries, all in one day. Then I got to do the assessments on the babies, give them their shots, first baths, etc etc. My favorite part was wrapping up those sweet babies and handing them to their parents for the first time, its such a special time and how lucky those nurses are to be able to be there for that. I dont think I will ever be an L&D nurse though, I just couldnt do it. There is so much liability due to the fact the the Doctor isnt even there until the last 5 minutes of the delivery, and it just makes me nervous. Plus, all the things that could go wrong that we read in our text books, eeek! freaks me out!! My favorite part so far about this rotation has been teaching the new moms and families about their babies, breastfeeding, etc. It makes me feel like I have a purpose rather than just BEING there. Although it IS a bit akward, considering I have never breastfed (duh), but at least I SOUND like I know what I am talking about. This Saturday is my last clinical and then its onto pediatrics at Childrens Hospital in LA. Cant wait for that!

Off to snuggle up and watch a movie with Michael. Have a great weekend everyone!

p.s. here is a picture of Michaels mom and step-dad from our cruise this past May...I miss them SO much!!! They are the greatest people I have ever met (aside from my parents). They are in Arizona and we are planning to move there next year, I cant wait!!!! Love you guys!!

New look & Wedding Dress

Ok so I changed my blog up a little, its so much easier with the new Beta Blogger! Thanks Toni for the advice!

This is the wedding dress that I think I have my heart set on, I could always change my mind in the next year and a half, but for now, I love it. Its so perfect and its everything I want in a dress! (and its really reasonably priced too!)

I heart Target

Oh how I love Target. How sad that spending money makes me feel SO good! I havent bought myself ANYTHING aside from books and school supplies since January pretty much, so it was so nice to go and spend money. I got some workout clothes, a cute white shirt, a super cute headband, some $1 spot scrap stuff (super cute for $1!), and some socks. It feels good to buy stuff for ME and not for school or other people. I cant wait to be done with nursing school and buying stuff for myself again.

So I went to the Dr today (the GIRL Dr), and I have to say, everytime I leave that place I am a little freaked out. (I know this blog is being read by GIRLS anyway, and girls that are my friends better yet, so hopefully no one is offended). Last year, I think it was around this time, an anual pap came back "abnormal" which REALLY freaked me out. So I got a referal, and went in for a Colposcopy. If anyone has had one, then you know its not the most comfortable thing in the world. So then after that, I had to go in every 3 months for 1 year, and then go back to just once a year. So far it has been ok, no further changes in the "abnormal cells" but it totally just freaks me out. The reason that they are abnormal is because I have HPV, and I learned today that 1 in 3 women have it, so its not uncommon, nor is it a "gross STD" or anything like that. The reason it freaks me out, is because I know that I now have more of a chance to have cervical cancer in the future, and if the cells become more abnormal than they are now, chances of a normal conception/pregnancy go down. My Dr said to not stress about it, that cervical cancer is a slow growing cancer, and if I was to have it, it would be picked up on my anual pap, but it still worries me. I left crying because I would never forgive myself if Michael and I got married and I was not able to have children. So I talked to him when I got home, and he just said we would pray about it, and that if its in Gods will for our lives, everything will work out. I told HIM that we would be trying immediatly after nursing school, LOL. So anyways, if your reading this and you havent had a pap in a while, GO IN! Thats what we have health insurance for, and its something that could potentially save your life.

Ok depressing stuff aside, Gotta post this recipe for Pumpkin Cream-Cheese muffins. I LOVE the fall and love this kind of stuff. mmmmmm I am drooling thinking about these.

Pumpkin Cream-Cheese Muffins

1 (8 ounce) package cream cheese
1 egg
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
3 tablespoons brown sugar
4 1/2 tablespoons all-purpose flour
5 tablespoons white sugar
3/4 teaspoon ground cinnamon
3 tablespoons butter
3 tablespoons chopped pecans
2 1/2 cups all-purpose flour
2 cups white sugar
2 teaspoons baking powder
2 teaspoons ground cinnamon
1/2 teaspoon salt
2 eggs
1 1/3 cups canned pumpkin
1/3 cup olive oil
2 teaspoons vanilla extract

Directions


1. Preheat oven to 375 degrees F (190 degrees C). Grease and flour 18 muffin cups, or use paper liners.
2. To make the filling: In a medium bowl, beat cream cheese until soft. Add egg, vanilla and brown sugar. Beat until smooth, then set aside.
3. For the streusel topping: In a medium bowl, mix flour, sugar, cinnamon and pecans. Add butter and cut it in with a fork until crumbly. Set aside.
4. For the muffin batter: In a large bowl, sift together flour, sugar, baking powder, cinnamon and salt. Make a well in the center of flour mixture and add eggs, pumpkin, olive oil and vanilla. Beat together until smooth.
5. Place pumpkin mixture in muffin cups about 1/2 full. Then add one tablespoon of the cream cheese mixture right in the middle of the batter. Try to keep cream cheese from touching the paper cup. Sprinkle on the streusel topping.
6. Bake at 375 degrees F (195 degrees C) for 20 to 25 minutes.

Can we say YUM?!

First Exam

So today I had my first exam with this new instructor from HELL. I was so friggin nervous, I seriously had no idea what to study, this lady is so all over the place she should be thanking God every day she HAS a job! I was sooo suprised to come home and see I got an 86!! I so thought I failed (especially since she the average score was 66). I am really super happy!!!!

On a more important note, today is such a sad day. I wish people still felt the way that they did the days and weeks following 9/11, it almost seems as if people have been so quick to forget. I know its difficult, since so many of us werent directly affected by what happened, but I know that my life has changed since that day. I still remember so vividly watching the one tower burning and seeing the second plane crash into the other tower. I will never forget the camera zooming in on the building, only to zoom out because they realized that the objects they couldnt make out were people jumping out of the hundreth + story of the building. I dont even want to think about what I would have done had I been there. I am so thankful every day (and today especially) that I have the life that I have and that I have been so blessed. In class today we took a moment of silence to remember those lost that day, and I couldnt help but to cry. It was just such a tragic event and sometimes it still seems so unreal that something like that could happen to us, the United States of America. I just wish we were as united today as we were on 9-11-2001.

We will never forget.

1. Three things that scare me: my house catching on fire, losing someone close to me, snakes

2. Three people that make me laugh: Michael, Beana, Katie

3. Three things I hate the most: Rude people, bad drivers, bad hair days

4. Three things I don't understand: Spanish, French, and Chinese

5. Three things I'm doing right now: Listening to my dogs bark at nothing, blogging, drinking a diet root beer

6. Three things I want to do before I die: Have lots of kids, sky dive, and travel to Europe

7. Three things I can do: scrapbook, watch bloody surgery on TV while eating dinner, laugh until I pee my pants

8. Three ways to describe my personality: caring, fun, emotional

9. Three things I can't do: pick up dog poop, drink water, let my nails grow out

10. Three things I think you should listen to: Jack Johnson, kids on the playground, rain against your window

11. Three things you should never listen to: William Hung, AM radio, gossip

12. Three things I'd like to learn: How to knit, how to save money, how to let things go

13. Three favourite foods: in-n-out, cereal, dessert

14. Three beverages I drink regularly: Diet coke, diet mountain dew, ice blended drinks from Dr. Konkeys and The Bean

15. Three shows I watched as a kid: Full House, Saved By The Bell, David The Knome

16. Three people I'm tagging: Any 3 people that are reading this

Feeling better today than I was last night, although I woke up at 6 am because Michael was having an asthma attack. Maybe I will take a nap. I love naps.

Feeling down tonight

Not really sure why, just am I guess. I think its the baby bug biting me again. I swear, something is in the water, EVERYONE I know is pregnant right now, its insane. I dont know if its the new trend, or what, but I am so envious of everyone. So sad that it cant be ME, even though I know I will be there someday. I try to be happy for everyone, but sometimes its so hard because this evil part of my personality is like overflowing with jealousy. Its horrible, I know, but I cant help it, its the way I feel. It sucks to do things the "right way," to go to school, get married, buy a house, and then have kids. Cant we just skip to the kids part?? I just cannot wait to be a mother, and although I am enjoying my time now with just me and Michael, we both want children more than anything. I am crossing my fingers that we will plan on getting pregnant on our honeymoon, that is what we want as of now anyway. 2008 seems soooo far away!!

I love this guy! <3

I hate blogger

If I wasnt so dang CHEAP I would use typepad. I have a post thats in my "posts" section but the darn thing wont publish. WHAT ever!!

Nothing too exciting going on...really liking this new job I got as a nanny. Its for an 11 month old baby, Nathan, and he is just the sweetest, cutest, FATTEST little guy ever, hes so much fun!

Had chinese food with Michael tonight, NOT my favorite, but he swore this place was "amazing" (it was alright, no different than any other chinese place).

I miss my sister, cant wait to see her, hopefully next week.

Have to work tomorrow, ugh. I cant wait to be done with this job at the hospital, its just plain stupid and I cant stand working there. only 2 more weeks and I am done.

Michael goes for his interview tomorrow, I am super excited for him and cant wait to hear all about it.

Im craving a white blizzard...I must get one before work tomorrow!

The end.

Fun for the day

Was blog-surfing and found this, so here is the entertainment for the day :o)

1. If you could build a house anywhere, where would it be? mmm...probably in Huntington Beach, being there makes me happy
2. What's your favorite article of clothing? lately I havent been much into fashion (havent gone shopping in MONTHS), so probably a hoodie
3. Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex? big kissable lips!
4. What's the last CD that you bought? I dont even remember its been that long!
5. Where's your favorite place to be? In Michaels arms, awww
6. Where's your least place to be? Lindas lecture
7. What's your favorite place to be massaged? my feet
8. Strong in mind or strong in body? I think you have to be strong in mind to be strong in body, so strong in mind :o)
9. What time do you wake in the morning? I wish it was earlier, but usually around 9, if I have school then 5 or 6
10. What's your favorite kitchen appliance? kitchenaid mixer
11. What makes you really angry? bad drivers
12. If you could play any instrument, what would it be? piano, I love the piano
13. What is your Favorite color? PINK
14. Which do you prefer, sports car or SUV? a small SUV, I have my heart set on a kia sorrento or a highlander hybrid
15. Do you believe in afterlife? I believe in Heaven
16. Favorite children's book? The giving tree
17. What is your favorite season? Summer
18. What's your least favorite household chore? dishes!
19. If you could have one super power, what would it be? to fly
20. If you have a tattoo, what is it? A hibiscus flower with leaves on the small of my back (real original, I know I know)
21. Can you juggle? yea right
22. The one person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to? My grandpa, I wish I would have learned more about him and from him before he passed away
23. What is your favorite day of the week? Sunday
24. What's in the trunk of your car? Thank God I didnt answer this a month ago. Now there is water bottles, jumper cables, my spin seat, school books, and my skills bag for school
25. Which do you prefer, sushi or hamburger? hhmmm tough one, probably a hamburger, from in-n-out, with extra cheese paper!!

Ok if you took the time to read this, you better be doing it on your own blog!

I am trying to avoid studying right now, but it looks like I gotta break down and do it. Just got back from kickboxing, love that class.

Nothing exciting going on today, maybe a BBQ at Tawns later, I havent been able to see Dylan since I've been sick, cant wait to see him!!!

Long time no post

I feel like I havent blogged in forever, probably because I havent, lol. Life has just been busy, I have been sick since we got back from Laughlin and today is the first day I actually feel better. Went to the dr and they said it was viral, so I basically suffered for 3 weeks hacking up my friggin LUNGS!! So glad to be feeling better though. Got in a good workout last night for the first time in a while and my glutes are wishing I wouldnt have! It feels good to feel sore, means I'm doin somethin right!!

So I started school on the 21st, and its INSANE. I have the instructor from hell, I dont know how she is still teaching. I am sure she is a great person, but as an instructor she is just aweful. So unorganized. Very rude. Says tacky things. ugh. The other day a lady that has a son with special needs (all the students knew that from being in class with her last semester, however since the instructors change, she had no idea, nor do I think she would have really cared) asked some sort of question about something to do with the possiblity of a child being born with brain damage or some sort of disability, and the instructor responded with something about "those kids will ride the little yellow special bus for the rest of their life" OMG! how rude can you be?!?!? She also was talking about young girls having babies to have someone to love them, and she continued to say that "babies dont love you, children dont LOVE YOU, they are just parasites" WTF? So I have 7 more weeks to deal with this crazy lady, wish me luck!!

Clincials have been good so far, we are doing labor and delivery, and my last shift I got to see a c-section, 2 vaginal deliveries, and got to do the assessment and first shots for the babies. It was such a great experience, I really loved it. Got a break this week because of Labor Day, woo!! Now if I could just get myself to study...

Wedding plans are the same...everything is pretty much PLANNED, now its just the waiting part. A friend of mine recently got married at the place we chose as our venue, and I cant wait to see her professional pics!! Here is one that her mom took. Gosh it makes me wish school could just FLY by and we could be married already and start our lives together.

Speaking of Michael, I just love him. He is the most amazing person I have ever had in my life, and sometimes I think I forget to tell him that. Its been an adjustment to live with him, especially HERE, but its been really fun, and we are making things work. The best part is that Michael is saving money like crazy, and that was the whole goal. Aside from the bummer of having to put $4,000 into it for a new engine and radiator last week, and then new tires (another $500), we have still managed to save money, woo hoo. He has been nothing but sweet whenever I have asked him for money, even if its for something stupid (like white dreams from the bean that I am obsessed with these days). Lately we have been having these cute conversations about our future kids names, every once in a while one of us will say "what do you think of this name?" and we talk and day dream, its so fun :o) We cant wait to be there, but we are enjoying the time until we do. We really want to have kids ASAP, so we are counting on a honeymoon baby! (that could always change, but thats the plans for now). I know Michael will be such an amazing husband and father, and I cant wait!

We decided to go to Vegas for Thanksgiving this year, kinda a random thing to do, but it should be fun. Michaels mom invited us, along with our family friends the Reeses (yea like the candy), and its always a good time with them. I cant wait. I told Michael to start saving money for my pina coladas now! Vegas has to be just about the only place that I will be drunk the entire trip (I am not much of a drinker, but something about Vegas just says GET DRUNK). I cant wait.

Lately we have really been into this show called 'flip that house' and we really want to do it. Its a show where people buy a 'fixer-uper' and fix it up, and then sell to make a profit. Most people make between $50,000-$100,000 in like 2 months time, which is amazing. I told Michael he should consider doing it next fall, he could go to Arizona and spend a couple months fixing up a house and sell it, and we could use the profit to buy a nice big house (wishful thinking, but it COULD work!). I dont know, I have been having mixed feelings about Arizona lately. I really want to go because I know there is great opportunity for a young couple like us that want to start a family, but at the same time, EVERYTHING is here. Everything that I have never been away from, and am scared to death of leaving. This is my HOME, and its going to be so hard to leave!!! Maybe, just maybe we will win the lotto and be able to stay. (rriiiiiiight.). Michael is going in for a job interview this week, its actually a reall cool story. Granted it would be selling cars, but the guy told him he could start him between 60-80K a year. If he could make that and my salary as an RN, we COULD live here...but his heart is set on Arizona. Its only 6 hours away, but its just hard for me to grasp moving to another STATE! I just love California, I dont know anything else. We have time to think about it, and time before we leave, but I dont wanna go!

I miss my sister. For those of you who dont know she moved out to live with her cousin (our cousin I guess) in Long Beach to go to cosmotology school, and although plans havent worked out as well as they wanted it to (they started in July, got kicked out for something stupid, have to start back again from the very begining in OCTOBER), they are doing great, much better than they were a year ago. I just wish that mine and my sisters relationship was closer, but her and my mom bump heads way too much for her to be able to live here and have it be a civil environment, so its for the best, but I just miss having her around. She always makes me laugh and I love that about her.

Sigh, I guess now I have NO excuse to not study, now that I have written my life story. Thats all for now.